Back to Goa, and Delhi (2018)


So we are going back to Goa for some Ayurvedic treatments and Delhi for some shopping. I will try to post everyday here, depending on a Wifi signal.

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This was last year (2017) in Mandrem Goa on the rooftop of the hotel.

 

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Loss & pain


I was hesitant to share this. I guess because it still is difficult to look at his photo. My little baby cat Rama died. He was hit by a car, I guess. Someone found him in the alley behind the building. They wrapped him in some paper and left him in the communal garden.

My friend came knocking, crying, asking when was the last time I had seen Rama. My blood turned cold as I realized what might be happening. I followed her to find Rama, wrapped, dead. His eyes were empty, void, and had a little blood that came out of his nose.

I couldn’t believe my little baby was dead, in front of me, wrapped in some generic paper. In a sense it was like a gift, an early Christmas gift. The message was clear. Enjoy life while  you can. The problem is that we think we have time. We don’t.

I asked my friend what could I do with his body. She said I could bury him in the garden. We dug up a deep hole. I went back to my apartment to get my favorite sarong from India. It is orange with lots of mantras written on it. One of them is ‘Hare Rama’. I wrapped his body in it, placed him in the hole, and covered it up.

Later on that night I grabbed a large handful of incense, my Mala, and went back to the garden. I lit all of them at once. The smoke filled the whole area. I laid the Mala on top and left.

It is strange to be home without him. I have two other cats, Raja and Ganesh.

I know it’s difficult for others to empathize with another’s loss or pain, but Rama was my friend, family, and he will be missed.

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I love you and miss you, Rama. 🙂

 

So I won something


I entered an art show in Saint Louis. I don’t know why I did it. Maybe it was to just test to see what is out there. Anyway my stuff won best in show. Yay! This means I have a $100 gift card to Artmart, a local art supply place.

I have to remove my work tonight. I have no idea what I could buy at Artmart. First of all everything is so expensive and then…actually I have been wanting to paint again. Maybe I’ll get some good paints and a board. I like to paint on hard surfaces now. I’m thinking of using my digital work as ‘sketches’ or maquettes for actual physical paintings.