I was hesitant to share this. I guess because it still is difficult to look at his photo. My little baby cat Rama died. He was hit by a car, I guess. Someone found him in the alley behind the building. They wrapped him in some paper and left him in the communal garden. My friend came knocking, crying, asking when was the last time … Continue reading Loss & pain
I have thought about ending life many times but lately the feeling is getting stronger. I just don’t see the purpose of all of this crap. We is absolutely no point to this existence. Greed has made man a demon and he is destroying everything that is worth a damn. Everyone is nicely settled in their own bubble. Usually I think of doing art when … Continue reading Weird day, weird life.
So I just watched the Super Bowl. It was interesting to watch and the athletes were amazing. Both teams gave their best. However it is crazy to see the amount of money and attention that goes into something like this…a game, entertainment, a distraction. It is sickening to see the team’s owners in their special boxes looking down at their investments like Caesar looking down … Continue reading Caesar watching the Super Bowl
I haven’t been home in a while so my friends brought me to a secluded beach. It is such a lovely intimate quiet place. I spent the whole time looking for beautiful pieces of corals on the shore. I took comfort in the sounds of the waves crashing and wind and birds up above. I collected quite a few coral pieces. I am hoping to … Continue reading Coral beach
A slice of American political landscape through the eyes of a bohemian lost soul. Continue reading I feel like disappearing
Once in a while I like to meditate, not as a verb or action. I like to just sit and let it all be. It’s so interesting to see how much we want to control, how much we feel we don’t. I like to release my grasp on what I think is important, and let my true nature express itself. Meditation for me is an … Continue reading Meditate
I posted a photo, hum…here, let me show you: Then, the next day, I was flagged and blocked from posting anything else for 24 hours. Here’s the message I posted when I was able to: Fascinating, the henna photo previously posted by me offended someone and they flaggled it and for that I say go f@ck yourself who ever you are. This country is interesting, … Continue reading The Facebook dilemma…
That’s a mouthful to say. Hum, so I haven’t written anything here lately…Duh! School starts soon and I can’t wait. This will be a great school year, I can feel it. Next project will be Graduate school. I’m not sure where I’ll go. I guess it depends where I get the most money. I feel good. I don’t know why and I guess it doesn’t … Continue reading Soon school starts…
My friend’s grand mother died yesterday so I called her in Guadeloupe. We had a great chat. She said that granma’ was 92 and was tired of not being able to move and do thing on her own. She had to have people bathing and changing her. She just decided to stop eating until she died. She died in a hospital bed. So I told … Continue reading death…
This is hard…I’ve been here before…sort of. A clean break is all I need. Run, run, don’t look back or you’ll turn into a pillar of salt, frozen in time, frozen in pain. My heart is agitated in fear, in pain waiting for the final blow, the final crush. I believe did the right thing. It an endless vortex…the black hole…my love. I’m too weak … Continue reading I have to move on…
A list of what I want in life. Continue reading Mapping what I want.
so I decided to give worldpress a try. I don’t think that blogger is bad but I just like to change things once in a while :). I’m back in The Lou and for the first time, I’m really happy about that. The Fall season is upon us and it just happens to be my favorite season. I think I’ll need to find me a … Continue reading fall 2009
I think it’s more confusing because I made the mistake of thinking that I would never be confused like that again, hehehe. I feel so weird and lost, yes lost and scared. I feel my life has been flipped upside down yet nothing has changed…weird. The change must be in me. It’s stemming out of me. Maybe that’s why it’s so scary. If it was … Continue reading So I’m so confused.
So here I am once again in Ottawa. This time around I went through Montreal and I have to say it was a much better experience with the custom agents. I feel like I’m having a mid-life crisis. I feel like I’m at a crossroad, a fork. I’m not sure which way to go. I feel a little weak and vulnerable because I feel lost. … Continue reading O Canada
It was pointless to share. It only brings back old habbits…time to move on. Continue reading Pointless
01. Do not walk behind me, for I may not lead. Do not walk ahead of me, for I may not follow. Do not walk beside me either. Just pretty much leave me alone.02. The journey of a thousand miles begins with a broken fan belt and leaky tire.03. It’s always darkest before dawn. So if you’re going to steal your neighbor’s newspaper, that’s the time to do it. 04. Don’t be irreplaceable. If you … Continue reading The Zen of Sarcasm
Jerry sent me this flower and that exactly how my heart is. Continue reading My heart
I woke up early today, even before the sun. There was something in the air. I got up and looked out my window and that’s when I saw it, the rain. It was coming like a blanket of haze. I quickly closed the window and went on the covered patio. I laid atop the table with a blanket and pillow as I watched this raging … Continue reading This is how I feel today.
This is my year: A 7 personal year promises to be a very introspective year, a period of some pause and reflection between very active years in your life. This year should provide you with some time for gaining some understanding of yourself, and you are apt to spend a good bit of time in contemplation. It will be good for you to spend time … Continue reading Personal Year 7…a time for analysis and understanding