Loss & pain


I was hesitant to share this. I guess because it still is difficult to look at his photo. My little baby cat Rama died. He was hit by a car, I guess. Someone found him in the alley behind the building. They wrapped him in some paper and left him in the communal garden. MyContinue reading “Loss & pain”

Weird day, weird life.


I have thought about ending life many times but lately the feeling is getting stronger. I just don’t see the purpose of all of this crap. We is absolutely no point to this existence. Greed has made man a demon and he is destroying everything that is worth a damn. Everyone is nicely settled inContinue reading “Weird day, weird life.”

Caesar watching the Super Bowl


So I just watched the Super Bowl. It was interesting to watch and the athletes were amazing. Both teams gave their best. However it is crazy to see the amount of money and attention that goes into something like this…a game, entertainment, a distraction. It is sickening to see the team’s owners in their specialContinue reading “Caesar watching the Super Bowl”

The Facebook dilemma…


I posted a photo, hum…here, let me show you: Then, the next day, I was flagged and blocked from posting anything else for 24 hours. Here’s the message I posted when I was able to: Fascinating, the henna photo previously posted by me offended someone and they flaggled it and for that I say goContinue reading “The Facebook dilemma…”

I have to move on…


This is hard…I’ve been here before…sort of. A clean break is all I need. Run, run, don’t look back or you’ll turn into a pillar of salt, frozen in time, frozen in pain. My heart is agitated in fear, in pain waiting for the final blow, the final crush. I believe did the right thing.Continue reading “I have to move on…”

So I’m so confused.


I think it’s more confusing because I made the mistake of thinking that I would never be confused like that again, hehehe. I feel so weird and lost, yes lost and scared. I feel my life has been flipped upside down yet nothing has changed…weird. The change must be in me. It’s stemming out ofContinue reading “So I’m so confused.”

The Zen of Sarcasm


 01. Do not walk behind  me, for I may not lead.         Do not walk ahead of me, for I may not follow.         Do not  walk beside me either.         Just pretty much leave me alone.02.  The journey of a  thousand miles begins         with a broken fan belt and leaky tire.03. It’s always darkest  before dawn.         So if you’re going to steal your neighbor’s newspaper,Continue reading “The Zen of Sarcasm”

This is how I feel today.


I woke up early today, even before the sun. There was something in the air. I got up and looked out my window and that’s when I saw it, the rain. It was coming like a blanket of haze. I quickly closed the window and went on the covered patio. I laid atop the tableContinue reading “This is how I feel today.”

Personal Year 7…a time for analysis and understanding


This is my year: A 7 personal year promises to be a very introspective year, a period of some pause and reflection between very active years in your life. This year should provide you with some time for gaining some understanding of yourself, and you are apt to spend a good bit of time inContinue reading “Personal Year 7…a time for analysis and understanding”