I’d like to meet someone who is interested in me; someone who is curious about me. My first girlfriend who died recently was so. She loved hearing about my life with its ups and downs, and was genuinely excited when I found a mate. I think I took that for granted, and was often annoyedContinue reading “Hopeless love.”
I like to try to give a painterly quality to my digital work. What say you? Yay? Nay?
I was hesitant to share this. I guess because it still is difficult to look at his photo. My little baby cat Rama died. He was hit by a car, I guess. Someone found him in the alley behind the building. They wrapped him in some paper and left him in the communal garden. MyContinue reading “Loss & pain”
I have thought about ending life many times but lately the feeling is getting stronger. I just don’t see the purpose of all of this crap. We is absolutely no point to this existence. Greed has made man a demon and he is destroying everything that is worth a damn. Everyone is nicely settled inContinue reading “Weird day, weird life.”
I’ve been thinking about how and why we bury our dead. In all movies and books they show people gathering around a hole in the ground. In this hole lays a corpse. Next to it is a mound of dirt waiting to fill the hole. Once every one gathered around has shown some sort ofContinue reading “Burial or Cat Poop”
Once in a while I like to meditate, not as a verb or action. I like to just sit and let it all be. It’s so interesting to see how much we want to control, how much we feel we don’t. I like to release my grasp on what I think is important, and letContinue reading “Meditate”
I’ve written about my last trip to India in sections and it’s annoying to find each section and read them separately so I’ve compiled them here, in one story. Enjoy… The trip from Stl to Bangalore So it has been an interesting 3 days so far but hey, when you’re in India, everything is interesting.Continue reading “India – The Whole Story”
What if our sole purpose on this planet is to eat food and poop it out? Hear me out. Everything on this planet intake stuff, ‘digest’ it and then transform it into something else that another ‘creature’ uses. For all we know, our nervous system is just there to support our digestive track. photo foundContinue reading “Our purpose on this planet?”
So when I was a kid about 6 years old my parents sent me to camp in St. Martin, another island north of Guadeloupe. It was carnival time and everyone dressed up. My fearless camp leader, a woman friend of the family, decided to dress me up as a little girl and may I sayContinue reading “Was I abused as a child?”
I dive within myself and dissolve into the infinite, like honey in hot tea. Aah, to lose oneself into the ocean of bliss. To become one again, like the raindrop falling into the ocean… I am home again, love me, caress me, make love to me I am yours.
I woke up with a heavy heart today. I tried to fight the tears but then gave up and cried and cried all day. I just don’t understand why it hurts so, or maybe it’s just me, letting go… I felt this grief coming, like a giant wave that swept me away, from my stableContinue reading “Heavy heart…”
Ok, so I’m feeling a lot better about the break up today. I think I may have forgiven her. I expected so much from her and she is so young. I think I was as selfish as she was, in different ways. I also didn’t want to let go of my anger because I haveContinue reading “Relationship…”
I was walking through the park today. The air was cold, not too cold. There was stillness within and without. Upon a path I saw a small tree. It had lost all it’s plumage, all but a few and that’s when I saw it. It was my little heart. It was perched on the highestContinue reading “my little heart…”
This is hard…I’ve been here before…sort of. A clean break is all I need. Run, run, don’t look back or you’ll turn into a pillar of salt, frozen in time, frozen in pain. My heart is agitated in fear, in pain waiting for the final blow, the final crush. I believe did the right thing.Continue reading “I have to move on…”
A list of what I want in life.
This is my year: A 7 personal year promises to be a very introspective year, a period of some pause and reflection between very active years in your life. This year should provide you with some time for gaining some understanding of yourself, and you are apt to spend a good bit of time inContinue reading “Personal Year 7…a time for analysis and understanding”
I don’t know where I’m going but I do know where I’m not. Hoping is futile and waiting is hopeless. I guess I use to wait for others to behave in a specific way…a way that I thought was right. How stupid of me. First of all, there is no right for all. I guessContinue reading “I wonder where I'll end up today.”
Is it me or did humanity just got into second gear?I tell ya, life has never been so good since I realized that I’m going to die.Death is the one thing that gives life meaning.I’m sure some people reading this, are thinking: “Do you have cancer? Are you terminally ill?”No! I don’t have cancer. WeContinue reading “2nd gear?”
Thanks for nothing George…