Loss & pain


I was hesitant to share this. I guess because it still is difficult to look at his photo. My little baby cat Rama died. He was hit by a car, I guess. Someone found him in the alley behind the building. They wrapped him in some paper and left him in the communal garden. MyContinue reading “Loss & pain”

Weird day, weird life.


I have thought about ending life many times but lately the feeling is getting stronger. I just don’t see the purpose of all of this crap. We is absolutely no point to this existence. Greed has made man a demon and he is destroying everything that is worth a damn. Everyone is nicely settled inContinue reading “Weird day, weird life.”

India – The Whole Story


I’ve written about my last trip to India in sections and it’s annoying to find each section and read them separately so I’ve compiled them here, in one story. Enjoy… The trip from Stl to Bangalore So it has been an interesting 3 days so far but hey, when you’re in India, everything is interesting.Continue reading “India – The Whole Story”

Our purpose on this planet?


What if our sole purpose on this planet is to eat food and poop it out? Hear me out. Everything on this planet intake stuff, ‘digest’ it and then transform it into something else that another ‘creature’ uses. For all we know, our nervous system is just there to support our digestive track. photo foundContinue reading “Our purpose on this planet?”

Was I abused as a child?


So when I was a kid about 6 years old my parents sent me to camp in St. Martin, another island north of Guadeloupe. It was carnival time and everyone dressed up. My fearless camp leader, a woman friend of the family, decided to dress me up as a little girl and may I sayContinue reading “Was I abused as a child?”

The sweetness of the infinite…


I dive within myself and dissolve into the infinite, like honey in hot tea. Aah, to lose oneself into the ocean of bliss. To become one again, like the raindrop falling into the ocean… I am home again, love me, caress me, make love to me I am yours.

Heavy heart…


I woke up with a heavy heart today. I tried to fight the tears but then gave up and cried and cried all day. I just don’t understand why it hurts so, or maybe it’s just me, letting go… I felt this grief coming, like a giant wave that swept me away, from my stableContinue reading “Heavy heart…”

my little heart…


I was walking through the park today. The air was cold, not too cold. There was stillness within and without. Upon a path I saw a small tree. It had lost all it’s plumage, all but a few and that’s when I saw it. It was my little heart. It was perched on the highestContinue reading “my little heart…”

I have to move on…


This is hard…I’ve been here before…sort of. A clean break is all I need. Run, run, don’t look back or you’ll turn into a pillar of salt, frozen in time, frozen in pain. My heart is agitated in fear, in pain waiting for the final blow, the final crush. I believe did the right thing.Continue reading “I have to move on…”

Personal Year 7…a time for analysis and understanding


This is my year: A 7 personal year promises to be a very introspective year, a period of some pause and reflection between very active years in your life. This year should provide you with some time for gaining some understanding of yourself, and you are apt to spend a good bit of time inContinue reading “Personal Year 7…a time for analysis and understanding”